October 2020 has been an emotionally heavy month for me, so far. As you noticed in my previous post, I have been dealing with some anger regarding the death of my daughter. There are so many questions unanswered and it is very difficult to deal with at times. Your unyielding support continues to get me through and I am very thankful for you all.

In addition to that, I recently discovered a new source of support that is perfectly located in Southern California. The name of the organization is Forever Footprints and I was re-introduced to them by a friend from high school. After I had Eva, the nurses had put a hat on her little head. The tag on the hat showed it was donated from Forever Footprints and I was probably in too much shock at the time to think anything of it. It hadn’t occurred to me that their organization had support groups for women and families with similar experiences to mine. God is good ya’ll! I immediately connected with them on Facebook and started getting notifications for their upcoming virtual group meetings. I attended my first one today.

None of us in the group ever imagined we’d suffer such tramatic, painful loss but I believe we all draw strength from one another. I look forward to growing closer to the other bereaved mothers. 💔

So, that was how I started my day. I shed a couple tears with the other mothers but I found comfort in knowing I am not alone in my suffering. After the meeting ended I took myself for a walk. On my walk I realized that I haven’t yet posted much about my travels… and that’s what I mostly wanted this blog to be about! Eva inspires me to write during my travels, so I hope to shift my focus a bit going forward. (Having a brand new phone and AWESOME new camera will help a lot too!)

I landed in Raleigh-Durham last night around 9:30pm. I’m here on a 31 hour layover. This is my second time here. We stay in Chapel Hill, which is located near to UNC. It is absolutely charming here!

I have often dreamt of living in a cute, quiet town like this, especially during Fall! I leave all options open to the Lord. If it is His will to lead me somewhere new again, I will go. I am mostly drawn to the architecture here. I love homes that are beaming with character!