The inception of this site came to me about a month ago. My amazing cousin, Dominique, encouraged me one night to start journaling my unrelenting thoughts. I thought I was being doomed to a pen and paper but after much contemplation I realized how brilliant and loving her suggestion was. I have jotted many sporadic thoughts over the years, but nothing with a consistent theme where I was truly inspired to write. Travel forEva is dedicated to the memory of my daughter, Eva Jiselle, and is inspired through all my travel while working and for pleasure. Thank you to every single one of you reading this! Your amazing support through my heart-aching motherhood journey has been tremendous. I would not have come this far without you all. 🙏🏽❤

As you know, I am a bereaved mother. My beautiful, angelic, precious daughter was pronounced stillborn the night I thought I was in labor. My womb had been her home for 39 weeks and 6 days (1 day shy of her due date). Carrying her was the greatest joy I have EVER experienced, but losing her has been my deepest, darkest sorrow. It’s been over 6 months without her, and I still think about her every single day. The pain has been greater than any lost love before her and I will never be the same person.

Grief continues to carry me through the widest range of emotions. One moment I am comforted by God’s grace, the next I am steaming with rage. If ever there were a time in my life where I felt absolutely out of mind, this is certainly it. And amazingly, you all are still here by my side. God has blessed me in my darkest hour.

If this blog site is a success, I pray that my experiences and insight may, at the least, encourage you the same way many of you have encouraged me. It’s taken me about 6 months to truly accept my new reality. Although what I have been through is undeniably sad I am determined to “keep on keeping on” because I refuse to let sadness, disappointment, discouragement, heartache and self-pity win! Blogging is meant to be a tool to help me heal, but if my words could also bring positivity and light in your life, then I am honored and blessed.

With all that being said, a little disclaimer:

I am the author and editor of this site. There will be typos and grammatical errors, don’t judge me! It’s been over 10 years since I graduated from college. I apologize in advance if you find my words or content obscene. Try as I might, not all my emotions are processed well. This is meant to be like a journal, after all. And before I close out my very first blog, I need to shout a HUGE thank you to my incredible brother, Jonathan! I am smart, but not smart enough to code this beautiful site together. Jonathan and Jehu, you guys have offered me the greatest gift and I thank you from the bottom of my recovering heart. 💖